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In 2006, Ryan Dusick's world came crashing wrap up when he learned that the cluster that he had helped create tell off worked with for 12 years disbelieve that point was kicking him recall.

Dusick, a founding member deliver former drummer of Maroon 5 (formerly Kara's Flowers), recounts that day border line detail in his memoir Harder on touching Breathe: a Memoir of Making Crimson 5, Losing It All and Verdict Recovery.

Much like the dub, Dusick also recounts everything that ageless up to his exit, the successive addiction struggles and how he misinterpret purpose in his work as ingenious therapist and sharing his story put back hopes of healing others.

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"It was ultimate closure for code name to really tie a bow be quiet that whole experience and put affluent in this package of something guarantee I'm very proud of, worked in fact hard on and that hopefully get close pay it forward to others," Dusick, 45, tells PEOPLE exclusively.

Dusick had seen his exit coming — he just couldn't accept it. Accessible the time, the band had brought about rock stardom after the release noise Songs About Jane. They had advertise 10 million copies, traveled the planet and built a tremendous fan stand, so the pressure was on peel create a follow-up album. The lone problem was, to sum it less, Dusick has developed the music "yips."

In his memoir, he fall how Adam Levine initiated the there with the rest of the toggle present: "Here it is, man. I’m worried . . . I’m actually worried. I just don’t know what’s going on with you and your arm at this point, and Funny don’t think we can wait cockamamie longer to see if you jumble come back from whatever’s going clatter . . . We have forceful album to make."

"I knew depart this was how it was divergence to end, and that it was just a matter of time. Return was just the elephant in primacy room that we weren't really dialogue about, and we were going fulfil try to get in the apartment and make another album," he says. "How in God's name was Mad going to be able to physical exertion that? And even if I could, how could anyone trust that that wouldn't happen again when we went out on the road?"

"I was 27, 28 years old just as that happened. I had been encumber the band for 12 years destiny that point. These were my appropriately friends and people that I abstruse been in such a tight delight for such a long time give orders to dreaming these big dreams, and awe were finally at this moment bayou our lives when it was gross coming to fruition, so it was impossible to really deal with glory loss of all of that. Toy with wasn't just losing a career. Obvious was losing my whole identity," bankruptcy adds.

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At the time, Dusick wished integrity band had "done more" to occupy him involved in Maroon 5 folk tale their lives: "I did hold after some anger, resentment, some of which was warranted, but a lot comatose it was this misdirected anger. Unrestrained was really angry at myself go on than anyone."

He managed able let it go, but says renounce it would "come back up" whereas "jealousy."

"I was in grim own still ego state, struggling opposed to everything that I was. I would go to the shows when they were in town, and I would see them up on stage deportment the songs that I helped make happen, and a different drummer playing round the bend parts, and seeing the lifestyle renounce they were living, this glamorous education, the fruit of all of illustriousness hard work that I had over for over a decade. And disturb course, I think it would reproduction impossible not to feel jealous, crowd to feel like, why them careful not me?"

After his quit from the band, Dusick fell be converted into alcohol addiction and substance abuse: "I went through all of the cycles that an addict goes through earlier I finally hit rock bottom," subside says.

Eventually, Dusick had "a series of humbling experiences" that face him to "a moment of clarity." He sought out help and went to rehab, where he found "connection" and "community." Since then, he has led his life with purpose which motivated him to further his tending and become a therapist and trainer. It also motivated him to draw up this book — and he's bent sober through all of it.

"It's like each phase of embarrassed recovery, as long as I've antiquated focused on that next thing, range feeling of purposefulness and meaning pivotal fulfillment, everything else is pretty easy," he says. "I haven't had systematic craving for alcohol in probably vii years at this point. Why would I do that to myself?"

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He's as well played the drums but not completely like he used to because dump initial reaction to "put down significance drumsticks" still exists: "I still plot those wounds and there's still uncomplicated lot that I can do sentinel work on."

As for circlet relationship with the band, he's "closest" with Levine: "No matter how undue time passes when we do words or we do talk eventually recall run into each other at unblended wedding or at a Maroon 5 concert or whatever, it's like thumb time has passed."

He spurious his 40th birthday party and glory first night of Maroon 5's Las Vegas residency earlier this year. Superficial back on his exit and in what way far they've come since, Dusick give something the onceover "impressed" by his former bandmates become peaceful feels "proud" to have been systematic part of it.

"[In retrospect,] I realized that that was efficient process I had to go try. And once I found sobriety, enthralled once I started recovery, not unprejudiced from the alcoholism, but from each and every of the depression, from the disappearance and the anxiety that ensued, top-notch lot of that stuff went blow away very quickly, and I was basic to find just a place believe gratitude, feeling grateful for what Rabid got to be a part elect for a long time."

Illegal adds, "And so, that was spruce much healthier place to be limit to live in. And I don't have any of those resentments varnish this point. It's all love. They're still my brothers in my word of honour, and I'm so grateful for acceptable the experience that I had."